How do we process internalised trauma?

How do we live well in our ‘now’ when an unseen, traumatic past continues to exist in our present, as memory?

By using my practice to acknowledge internalised trauma (and by making work in response to that trauma), I am no longer alone with the memory but sharing that space with the work that exists because of the memory.

The ugly gains its beauty.

Roof Tiles, 2022

Dear Father,

I will not bring you salt.

I will not eat your bread.

I will not take your crazy.

Yours sincerely.

Lead sculpture, crown, trauma, memory

Crown, 2022

Dear Mother,

I do not love you.

I do not hate you.

I do not blame you.

Yours sincerely.

Sow teats, sculpture, self-awareness, pink fur

Sow, 2022

Silver body wearing mask, no identity, mental health
Letter, redacted, mental health, identity.

Redacted #1, 2023

Redacted #2, 2023

Did you think about how long what you’re doing would last? 2022

Is the Internet a distraction from ‘real life’ intimacy or the solution to ‘real life’ loneliness?

Does ‘real-life’ intimacy require physical interaction with another physical body?

If all our experiences are constructions arising from within, can we construct intimacy internally and feel it from the inside out?

Do we need another physical person to satisfy ourselves intimately, or is the idea of a physical person enough?

Hand casts, sculpture, intimacy, digital relationships

It Felt Like Love #1, 2023

Mannequins, poses, intimacy, anonymous

It Felt Like Love #2, 2023

hand-painted, washi rolls, hands, identity, anonymous

It Felt Like Love #3, 2023

pixelated images, digital identity, anonymous.

Intimate, 2022

The 30-Second Rule, 2023